almost over

ayer estuve pensando en todo lo que me ocurrio este año en como el mundo es raro y como de una rara manera las cosas se han hido acomodando y las que ya no caben salen he pensado mucho ultimamente acerca de lo que deveria estar agradecido de este año asi que hice mi propia carta a dios,

 god?
i don't know if you are there, i was thinking about all those things you gave me this year, o thos that i was getting stuck again and again you pull me out, so i thought i should be thankful for that, i thank you for him eduardo i know is dificult but i think that i will make him happy if you show him the path to be free i know that you like to teach but don't you think is enough for him i don't want to see him suffer for  me so as my oldes brother said plist take him away but make you will (i wouldn't mind if your will could be for him to stay with me) at this point of my life father eternity seems so far and i wonder why do we have to wait why? i wonder many things and i'0m afraid to get respose you know every time i wonder i get a slap and i'm tired father, is it beacuse i have not made yet the proper question?is it?i want him  and not the way i made before whith other guys and you know i think i love him and i will be happy to be with him alone by the rest of our lives but the again i have to make it as your will, i'm thatnkful for that for life because this year was awsome o learn many things  i understand others that was not seeing but above all now i know that love exist that yu are real and that happiness does not hurt i'm still afraid tomorrow seem dark because we do not know whats next