don't rain on my parade

me ha tomado una cantidad imprecionante tomar la decicion de escribir de nuevo, no habia mucho que contar (same old bad song of mine) some things have change though, i still like to me on my own but for some reason i ignore some one is knoking my door and runing wich is funny 'cause i sort of like it, miguel and i sort of split off i kind of realize the we never were friends and that hurts he was trying to reach out but i don't want to have that king of people on my life right know, a new friend said to me the other day "your problem is you don't know how to recognize friend from people that you just know" my brother told me the same thing and it scares me (another one thing to the list) i wonder how long will it take for me to master my constant fears, is sometimes just anoying for me to have so many of them going around recentry eduardo tried to reach out again and yet againg my pride decided to get avant and protect me from my self yet he tried to reach it was not for us to be together again i think now i'm over him or at least i hope that, i've been dating this two amazing gus but neither one of them seems to fit me one is all amazing and stuff but is the same thing i'm way too much material to handdle and the other one is sometimes too much of a home-boy he does not dance or like the same things as me and i'm sure he hides things, and i don't like that; i've been there, the other one makes such a great effort to please me but... though he aims the moons his rocket does not even get thru the admosphere i certainly need a mean one, i need passion some who make feel alive like him like flavio like cesar someone who will not be afraid of the real me with the dark side and the colors and the music and the dance and the awesome sex, i just don't quite know but maybe is beacause i have not yet get to where i must be so i think i'll wait some one have to come or i have to change enstead